Love: the Disease

Countdown to an evening with Scooter tomorrow night.

He brings out my neurosis full force. ...And the deepest sadness I've ever known.

November 7th marks the 2 year anniversary of when I met him. I've never loved anyone as much as I do him. And he keeps me at arm's length. And breaks my heart over and over.

I let him. Like a complete bitch with no self-esteem, I let him. Just to have him in my life. Just in the off chance that I can show him how much I love him.

He draws me in... And pushes me away.

From one day to the next I waffle back and forth between showing him nothing but love... and telling him good bye for good. Good bye is winning today.

Everblue

Love doesn't come alone, now does it?
Present perfect tense
So you made yourself a new world
Where even strangers make more sense
I pay the pain up right straight ahead
And with the beat
You can ease yourself into the light
Or keep that record on repeat

What if I loved you?
What if I loved you?
What if I loved you?
Everblue
Everblue

Fought away the sleepless hours
Unsettled dreams will make you keep
You can paint them all your brilliant colors
Just don't fall off into the deep
Happiness is not a burden
Oh, how the pendulum will swing
I have felt the ground, I've seen the seeds

Out of which grew golden wings

What if I loved you?
What if I loved you?
What if I loved you?
Everblue
Everblue

High above the stars are dancin'
To a soul, one bird is singin'
And it's you, my Everblue

What if I loved you?
What if I loved you?
You know I love you
My Everblue
Everblue
Everblue
Everblue